Promptly DB entered the house, glared, made a snide comment about the door, and dragged himself up the stairs and crashed in our bed. Discussion over. It didn’t matter that I tried to talk to him. In hindsight talking would have been futile anyway.
In the morning he decided to sleep in so I handled everything with the kids. We went to tutoring, sports, and ran around in the morning. Much to my surprise DB was upset when I came home. He didn’t understand why I hadn’t woken him up to help in the morning and asked why I hadn’t called to let him know where we were. This was pretty much how we ran our lives. Two separate people living together.
Seriously here, who was this man kidding?? If he couldn’t call and ran his own schedule – shouldn’t he be treated the same? Our lives weren’t going to be on-hold just because DB decided to rearrange his life. You can’t just decide to stay out all night with another woman when you are married and expect life to remain normal. Did DB not realize that he just drew a huge line in the sand?
No he didn’t.
While DB watched TV with the kids, I chose to read in another room. I couldn’t sit with them anymore and pretend that life was normal. My stomach turned constantly wondering if this would be the last time he played with our kids in our house.
DB did take time to come in to talk to me about what happened. He even offered an apology – for threatening me on the phone. However, he didn’t say a word about spending the evening with another woman. During this time we laid out some ground rules about where we would like to see this “relationship” and how we should treat each other. What the rules are doesn’t matter – it’s whether or not we both want to work on this relationship or if he is done. It’s difficult to still want a relationship with your husband, but realizing that he doesn’t want you or your family anymore is unbelievable.
Our final compromise is that DB lives in the office, we stay in counseling with Dr. X, and I hold dinner until 5:30 – when he returned from work. But how long would these silly, but perhaps needed rules even hold? And does it really matter? I am too exhausted to think about it….